Can I just be super honest with y’all for a second? I’m jealous.
I’m totally jealous of women who post about their daily devotionals at
10:00 a.m. on a Tuesday morning on <insert social media site here>. I’m jealous of stay at home wives and mothers
who have the time and ability to sit down at a totally acceptable time of day,
after they’ve been up for a few hours and have had enough coffee to get their
brains firing on all cylinders and they have the ability to grasp and
understand what they’re reading. I’m
jealous of the amazing “a-ha” moments they share with us at 11:00 a.m., while those
of us in the workplace are running to a meeting, conference call, working on
some big project that our boss wanted like 5 minutes ago, or scarfing half our
lunch down because we’ve been up since 5:00 a.m. (or earlier) and our stomach
just growled so loud we’re pretty sure someone on the floor above us just heard
it.
There. I admit it – I’m
jealous of you, stay at home wife/mother.
But, let me also say thank you.
I’ll be totally honest on another front here – some days,
your quick devotional update is the only devotional I get. Some days, I wake up late (ok, MOST days I wake up late). Sometimes, by the time I get off work, go to
whatever extra meeting, ball game or other commitment I have (and I don’t even
have any kids yet), it’s all I can do to get home, grab some supper and get
ready for the next day to do it all over again.
Some days, by the time I walk through my front door – I have to force
myself to eat, shower and get my clothes ready for the next day because all I really
want to do is crash…and the thought of reading anything just wears me out. It grieves me emotionally, spiritually, and
sometimes even physically to go without getting into the Word on a regular
basis. My soul has a deep longing to
have quiet time each day that I can dig into the Holy Word of God and feed my
spirit – and some days I accomplish that and I feel amazing and connected and
heard and loved by an incredible and living God and it’s awesome, and…some
days I don’t.
I long for the day that, God willing, E and I have children
and I can (hopefully) stay at home with them and be able to encourage my fellow
sisters out there who are wearily juggling the demands of being a wife and
mother (as if that’s not enough) and holding down a full time job in the
process.
So thank you. Thanks for
sharing whatever verse or lesson or screen grab of your devotional with the
rest of us…you have no idea what encouragement it is to those of us who are
trudging along through our days just hanging on by a thread because of what
some coworker is stirring up down the hall, or the nasty email we just got from
our boss, or the sick kid we had to leave this morning because there’s too much
going on at work and we can’t take off.
So. To the gal that keeps us going with your daily share: Keep on keepin’ on, sister – you’ll never know how grateful
we are for it.
